It's been two years since we had our very memorable summer sessions. The curricculum that we were mandated to take on a summer was called Feasibility Study. This is actually the continuation of our Market Acceptability Analysis. In this subject we are now to establish a business based on the success of the acceptance of the public on the proposed product (I really don't know how to make it simple so just please bear with me.)

So here's our product....

Ever since the group was formed. We were already four. I'm the only male on the group but I think it didn't make any difference at all... haha! We were excited yet a bit apprehensive because the specialist that would be handling the class was infamously known as a Terror Professor. We were excited because we were determined to get the Best Feasibility Study and we were scared as well because this professor is really fond of embarassing students in front of the class.

As the class progressed through the first month, I can say that our sessions ran smoothly. Everything was okay and we were able to accomplish what our professor instructed us to do. However, there was an event that really made it remember. We were asked to search for a model of a place to establish our business. Since we are a manufacturing business, we have to search for a warehouse. We were able to do so however we're not too sure if we can take some pictures. My teammate got a crazy idea and this is what she suggested...

I took the picture of the place with them so the guards won't suspect!!! hahaha!

That day was really funny....

The final weeks were approcaching and I'm happy to say that so far we're keeping up on track. We will be able to finish our FS I thought-even if I had anxiety disorder at that time. Yeah, my anxiety disorder made its grand debut during the last weeks of our summer class. It's really hard but I was able or should I say We were able to survive despite of the things that had happened.

Our group did not win the best feasibilty study but at least we knew that ours was one of the candidates for such recognition. We fought the good fight at least...

Graduation has passed and we had our own lives now. We might not be able to see each other everyday but I'm happy because the memories of the old good times stayed. I'll be really missing these people whom I shared almost a fraction of the years that I've stayed as a college student. I will never forget the perseverance, the connections a.k.a. resources (hmmm. haha), the hardship and of course, the fun.

I'm so happy and proud that I had this group....

This week had been very very hard for me. There were situations that I had just encountered for the first time. Indeed life is the best learning ground. You won't know what's gonna happen as your journey goes. It's really difficult for me to do this post as emotions surge through out my inner being.... mixed emotions actually. I do not deny the fact that i'm struggling from my sexuality and I accept who am I right now. I admit, I do engage and explore on some things like trying to mingle with someone who's having the same preferences. I even joined a community dedicated for such. I meet someone and they do ask for my number but I've never met one.

Absurd as it may seem but every time I was invited for a meet-up I always refused. I can't explain the chills and the nerves. Many people passed by and I can say for myself that I somehow missed the chance.

MELANCHOLY....

There was this invitation though that I had not resisted. It was from a guy who kept on messaging me ever since September of last year. I really do admit he is so gorgeous. At first, I thought that was just nothing so I just disregarded his message. I do look down at myself as well due to my low self-esteem and that makes the reason for my refusals. He did not message me for a long time and I already had forgotten him. However it was really unexpected on my end that he did message me. I thought that somehow this person is really interested. It really took a long process before I accepted his request to meet him.

We're supposed to meet at an establishment somewhere in San Pedro, Laguna however I don't know for what reason he immediately went home without even having a glance at me. I just don't know why he acted like that? things came in and out of my mind. Was he able to see me and didn't like what he saw? Am I like some monster of some sort? I just wasted my money and my time. I went home....

CONFUSION...

I already addressed my concern to my supervisor. I am planning to resign from my job due to a lot of reasons. First was my health, I think I should rest for a while since I had discovered that Something was wrong with the bone in my neck. Second was that it seems to me that I'm no longer enjoying. I easily get upset when I encounter irate callers and when I can't hit the metrics set. However I do hold back for the thought of the compensation I receive every month. The person higher than my supervisor talked to me as well and requested that I should file my resignation after I'm regularized. I had to think twice, that was my thought. However, this days that had passed and it seemed that I'm already coping up with my working environment. So my resignation letter and is not yet finalized and I'm like crazy as I'm indecisive as of the moment.


so goes life... whew...

No one is in the house and I've forgotten my spare key so I just told myself why waste my time outside the house when I can check my stuff at the internet. So I went to the internet shop and I browsed my previous messages especially those that I had never opened before and this is what I found and I thought this will be great if i'll share it with you guys. This is a funny video that I received through email way way ago. It's a commercial from somewhere else i just dunno where but it's really hilarious. This really proves that never underestimate the power of marketing. Do watch it!

I was already at the jeepney after buying some stuff at SM santa rosa when I have received an SMS message. Our professor is already dead. It was sent to me by my friend who is the secretary of the Graduate school at SPCBA.

The professor I'm pertaining to is Mr Antonio Medrano. He teaches mostly on BS business Management Students at San Pedro College of Business Administration. I used to call him "prayle" because of his "Noli-me-Tangere-ish" features. You can mistakenly identify him as a rector of some sort.

Me and Sir Medz (as most students call him) became close when a certain misunderstanding occurred at the school. He really portrayed himself as very strong person who stands on what he really believes despite the threats and adversities he is facing.

I will truly miss you sir medz!

I've already handled multitude of calls for the past months that i've been working as call center agent. There are a few that are worth remembering and there are a few as well that you wished you haven't received it. There are funny ones and there are ones that made you go berserk and destroy your whole day. But one call that I won't really forget is a call from an ordinary elderly woman. This really marked my life at the call center industry and I'll take it for the rest of my life.

I had her queue at the middle of the shift. I verified her information and everything's fine. But in the middle of our conversation she's already saying some things that somehow did not correspond with the information that I have on my computer. I checked first her account just to make sure that there might be a little bit of error and I probed hard. When something's not really working out, I told her the truth and she pleaded me some of the details-she might have just forgotten that she incurred such transactions.

She cried so hard when she found out all these and told me that she did not. Everything's screwed up. Someone has stolen her identity and did all the transactions fraudulently. Technically, her concern is so easy... I'll just be filing something on my end for her to incur zero liability for fraud charges and that's it however emotionally you can sense that the lady is so broke.

I almost fell off my chair when she told me her situation. SHE'S ON A WHEELCHAIR. She is only taken care of by her nanny who's not really someone related to her. She really knows that her nanny made those fraudulent transactions since that is not the first time she did it to her. She almost treated this girl as her daughter and she loves her so much.

She made the decision to report her nanny to the police. She's telling me this while in tears. I can really tell how she's so hurt to do so however she had no options. I just comforted her that what she did is just right and the best expression of love for that person is to teach her something that will make her a better person, it may not be know but who knows. I also told her that God is always good and help is always there whenever she seeks for it. The reason why this call made an impact on me is that she appreciated the help that I was able to provide her, the advices that I said and the love that she somehow sensed on me. I was touched by this and it did not end there. the phrase that almost made me cry was:



"I will remember you for all the rest of my life here"


Now, I no longer recall her name. We are in a paperless company. but one thing is certain, I will also remember her.

Oh my... days and days has passed after the new year and I haven't updated my blog. I know guys that I owe you this and I do apologize for the non-responsibility of making these things just to entertain you. I know that it's been a while however the saying still proves right that it's better late than never.

ahem ahem, first of all I do wanna greet you a very very happy new year (i know, i know, it's the 19th already) I do wish you all good luck despite of the predictions of our clairvoyants that this year is not a so so good to have.

Many things has happened during the past days after the new year. Well, as I am looking at my pathetic blog it's been before christmas since I have made an entry. I just want you to know that my dearest cousin celebrated her union with her hubby and as a proof, here's a little (not so...) souvenir that was given to me haha...

The picture was taken per batch.. the immediate (hmmm not really.. hehehe) family of the wife and then the groom. This is a special one though because this is for the JOMOBAS, a group of different kids on the block-and a kid at heart. hahaha. Noticed my newly straightened hair? wahahaha!

I did celebrate the new year by lying on the "Papag", hugging my pillow and snoozing gently amidst the blasts and fire cracks outside our pad. (as in yellow pad) That's what really happens to those who have their terrible shift at the new year's eve. Gosh, i loved the shirt that i bought just for the occasion.

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going back to work... it's not really a good start. I started to feel neck pains associated with severe dizziness. My sup sent me to Makati Medical Center and thanks to God and medicard, I was able to have a consultation at no charge.(they usually take a thousand pesos for the check-up). Lots of tests and chorvalin garvansos were administered on me. huhuhu.. the first one is the terrible Intravenous thing. The doctor told me that it is the easiest way they can put the anti-dizziness drug inside my body. Every one at the emergency room was laughing as I shut my eyes just to avoid a glimpse of this terrifying thing inserted in my hand. and poof! it became kokocrunch! It really hurt!

Imagine this is being pricked on you.... and the worst thing is that it stayed for the whole check-up so I really have to be careful at my moves!!!! Remembering those days really stresses me. Good thing the doctors are really really HOT!

After that I had ECG and X-ray. After so many hours of waiting. The results were retrieved and they found something at my neck. I dunno what's that. It says that I have cervical strain....whatever. after that I went home.

So, I'll look forward to seeing you guys again at my mini blog. hahaha. THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR VISITING!